Uncertain

Life is really uncertain. We never know what will happen later, tomorrow, or in the next few days, weeks, months, or even in the next following years to come. It is indeed full of surprises. Many of us might be scared of what tomorrow brings because probably, many of us overthink about our own worries in life. Well, for me, that's normal to feel sometimes because we're humans after all and at some point in life, as we grow older, we always or often think of what will happen to our lives after. 

Admittedly, there are times when I feel that way most especially, when I can't help think of what tomorrow brings ahead of me or more like think of what lies ahead down that road. Nowadays, I am too damn scared of what will happen to me in the future because I've always been a pessimistic person and a lot of bad things in my life happened. In fact, I am still in the process of understanding life more even though I already understood a part of it. Sometimes also, I feel like a failure because recently, it feels like things aren't getting any better on my part, but I remember something that one of my college classmates and friends said to me. He said that it's not all the time bad things will happen, there will always be good things that could happen too. When I read that message during the time when I was really stressed almost throughout my Christmas break, I replied with something like I am hoping for the best. Well, there's nothing wrong with being a little bit optimistic on that part to be honest. It is hard, but it is something that I have to live by aside from what he said at that time.

Even though things like this could happen and even though uncertainties normally happen, it is important to focus on the present for the meantime so that our future will turn out well. It is hard but it is the best and the right things to do for now. It's already 2023 and I am hoping that things will get any better on my part. In few months this year, I will be graduating in college, but I don't feel excited about it because I used to believe this past few days that there's nothing special and exciting about it because I thought I didn't learn anything or more like, I am too stupid enough to know any better and also, it doesn't feel like aftter that day life will get any better on my part from then on.

But still, I have to continue focusing on what I can do now while hoping that things will get any better than now. What was taken away from me is something that either can be returned to me or the other way around. Life can offer a lot of things for sure and I am willing to take it if it means it will be for the better.